Childhood Into Adulthood

Born in Poole Dorset, 1996 Marie Brooker to Christine and Stephen Brooker both teachers at high school level. I was brought up a Christian and always felt a connection and closeness with 'GOD'. I stopped attending regularly at church when I was a teenager, as growing up my relationship with God and therefore the world was based on fear and shame. These beliefs followed me into adulthood. I had my share of ups and downs as a child and it wasn't always easy. However there is no Doubt that my parents loved me and still do.

I Always had a great love for animals and still do to this day! I attended Kingston Maurward Agricultural college, when is 16-18 years old, studying and receiving a Level 3 city and Guilds extended Diploma in Animal Management.

I then went on the Bangor University where I studied Zoology with Animal Behaviour. However I only managed to last out the first year as being stuck in a bedroom and expected to study, at the time was not for me. I became depressed and had frequent panic attacks.

So I packed my bags and enrolled on a city and guilds Level 3 professional dog grooming qualification. After completion I went on to work in a salon for 4 years before setting up my Dog grooming Business in January 2020.

This is where things took a huge turn, and my life started to change Forever, I started to Change Forever!

After hitting what I had set as my goal income a pinnacle point as a soul trader in my business within the first year and a half, a realisation hit me like a ton of bricks "Money is not everything, time and space to develop is more important". Asking the question "is this all that life is"? There has to be more than this life!!!!

I wanted to help people! I wanted and Needed to help myself!

But How ?

So I closed my Business for 8 months and sat and looked inward.

The Journey Inward

My Journey inward is one of great insight of myself, the world and the universe, gaining awareness and presence. Feeling a seeing myself as source, connected and one with all. This is not the 'Personal myself' that I speak of here but is the one that has no name yet includes every name. Words cannot describe what I now see as truth and I am now faced with the dilemma that in order to share my outlook with others I will need to use language as one form of communicating this.

During the 8 months I took COMPLETELY out I gained much insight into my conditioned mind, the pain and trauma I held and where I had been trapped. I started to heal and underwent much internal transformation. However this was not an easy process, however it was one I was more than ready for, even though at a lot of points it really didn't feel like that at the time. I had a major break through that manifested as a 'western' 'break down' and direct trip to the psych ward. As the society we live in is not set up and not in understanding of the different levels of consciousness and how to support people during such a huge shift in perception. I ended up hospitalised and sectioned under the mental health act. My stay consisted of two weeks, chemicals pretty much forced into me and left to my own devices. With little to no real support or understanding of my predicament. There was one huge POSITIVE about this experience. I developed the drive to feel the need to change things and Found an inner strength and resilience that went way beyond what I 'thought' I could overcome.

From that moment on it became my life's mission to not only heal myself and see pure truth but to be a support system for others on this journey of existence that is life itself.

Four Years on since I was hospitalised and my insight is growing every second. I closed my dog grooming buisness in January 2025 to allow more free time to BE and Live my full time purpose. I am more creative than ever, I am more content, my mind is much more quiet, intuitively connected . I am devoted to plant medicine as it directly connects me to nature and source and I truly feel that too much chemicals block my intuitive ability's.

MY VISON- To provide unconditional love and support for people everywhere in all walks of life going through there healing\awakening journeys. From Fragmentation to Wholeness.

"No money in the world can provide more than unconditional Love can" Mudita Marie Merkaba.

"True Love Needs no Conditions" Mudita Marie Merkaba.

I use an Amalgamation of different modalities and principles that I found through insight and learning to create an all encompassing holistic approach. This way nothing is left out. I see that all is one and all methods and paths lead to the same place for not one is superior to another. I remain open to all knowledge and methods. For, we are holistic beings living in a holistic world but our western world focussing on consumerism and 'what's best and what's not', we have lost our human need to see all paths as one and we be become off balance.

I auspiciously stumbled across some great teachers along the way, who were, are and will always be so close to my heart. Without the great beings whom I may not have been in the internal place that I am today and on the Journey I AM on.

My eternal Gratitude

Jesus, Shri Ramana Maharashi, Mooji Baba, Ram Dass, Maharaji, Buddah, Eckhart tole, Terrence McKenna. Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche,

Highest Love,

Mudita Marie Merkaba